Top of the week to you.

Ok a really bad play on words but I thought it was rather apt as my fashion picks this week are mainly tops.

My first choice is this beautiful top from Elvi fashion , this brand first came to my attention at Plus North this year and I’m loving a lot of the range they have available.

This top is in one of my favourite colours and  I can imagine myself wearing this top on Christmas day and out at drinks with friends.

It is simply stunning.




My second choice this week is this beautiful blouse from Asos curve.

My life involves meetings, conferences and training events  and i can imagine this blouse being perfect for all of these.

Yet I can also imagine with a nice handbag and a pair of heels I could dress this up for a meal out with the hubby or drinks with friends.

My person style involves a lot of blouses and jeans, smart and casual. This top would be a great addition to my wardrobe.





My third choice is this gorgeous Waterfall Jacket from Yours Clothing.

I’m not a great lover of coats as I am rather hot blooded and find most coats restrictive and bulky so this jacket is perfect for me to throw over and to keep the chills at bay.




Last and but not least i move away from tops and enter into my addiction for awesome boots.

This pair from Simply Be do not let me down they are beautiful and i so need them.

The ox blood colour, the biker buckles it is simply love for this catwalk collection biker boots from Simply Be




So there we go for my weekly wish wish list some beautiful items that I would love in my wardrobe.

The range of plus size clothing is certainly improving and I am loving the cut and design of the new seasons fashions.



Learning to love myself.

Lets be honest there aren’t many women who look in the mirror and likes what they see.

We all want to change a little about ourselves.

Me I have a love hate relationship with my body.

I love to hate it.

Thanks to medication and not being able to properly exercise due to this wonderful (sarcasm) illness I am
a lot larger than what I wish to be.

For the last 8 years I have pretty much hated the mirror and avoided at all costs. Convinced that nothing looks good or would look good.

The last few months I have finally started to get over myself.

Thanks to fashion plus size bloggers and the growing range of plus size clothing I am realising that I can look good.

Reading the beauty blogs and learning more about make up and being more adventurous

I am trying to move forward from the jeans and black Tshirt that has pretty much been my daily uniform.

In fact the other day I went shopping and actually tried on clothes that I would have normally shied away from.

And guess what I brought pink shoes. Yes that’s right pink shoes.

I know this sounds crazy but this is big for me.

The journey to loving my body starts here.


Feeling sick and needing help

Every time I see a magazine with models on the covers looking perfect, or enter a shop full of beautiful clothes I actually feel sick.

My body shape has changed so much in the last few years due to children, illness etc that I hate trying on clothes. I have just come to accept that if I see a top, dress I like you can guarantee it won’t be in my size.

The thing is I have kind of accepted the body I have, I don’t like it but unless a cure can be found for my illness I’m not going to be running any marathons anytime soon. My weight is also not helped by the medication which is great for pain but lousy for weight loss.

It’s been a weird road for me, I was a dancer in my younger years and finding clothes to fit was never a problem the tighter the better.

Move on 16 years it’s a case of the bagger the better and as for my style I really give up. I still like the rockabilly look but maybe a little smart too. Let’s be honest I haven’t a clue, I need help.

When the kids were younger I didn’t really stress to much, my wardrobe pretty much consisted of jeans and black T-shirt’s with the odd blouse for smarter occasions.

But recently I have found myself attending more meetings, conferences and workshops and have been feeling undressed and to be honest a bit of a scruff.

Now with Brit mums coming up I am actually really stressed and feel really sick.

The email for the brilliance in blogging finalists reminding us to wear what we are happy to have our photo took in has send me into a spiral of self doubt, fear and pretty much self loathing.

I’m trying to find the confidence to go shopping in hope of the perfect conference outfit. You know one that will look great on the photos but not be to overdressed for the workshops and will also not look out of place at the party in the evening. Yes I know I’m asking a lot.

So far I’ve only managed to look online and there is some beautiful plus size clothes out there, but will they suit me and my personality.

I know as we get older our bodies change and its part of life but I do think that changing styles also happens as we age. Not many of us would wear the same outfit at 36 that we wore at 18.

I guess I have to just work out what style suits this body and this 36 year olds personally.

This could take a while!

Anyone got any ideas?