Have you felt that you are at the end of everything?
That you have reached the point of no return?
That’s exactly how I have felt these last weeks, my face aches from my fake smile and my heart aches for my truth.
Sometimes in life you don’t actually realise that you are living a lie, you have even managed to convince yourself of the pretense.
What do you do when you see the light? When finally, the sticky tape that has been holding you together gives up and reality all comes spilling out like a raging river.
What do you do?
I hope you weren’t hoping for me to have the answers, I actually have no idea.
What I do have is my first step.
No more bullsh*t, no more fake smiles, no more pretending.
If I start with truth, then maybe truth will be the guide I need for my next step.
I’m tired of being ok with things that are not ok, tired of other people assuming their opinions are my own. Tired of saying yes when I really want to say no, tired of just not being me.
I hate that I do this to myself, I encourage others to search for their truth when I’m not owning my own.
I hate being a people pleaser, there is a difference between wanting to support, guide and love on others than just bending to the will.
Seriously,I am simply my own worst enemy, biting my lip so hard it bleeds when I know I am entitled to my own opinion and my own wishes.
Why do I do this, why do so many of us do this as I know I am far from alone?
Have we become scared of being uncomfortable?
Have we just become accepting of settling?
Do we not deserve to live our lives fully and wholeheartedly?
I know I have changes to make, people that need to hear me. In fact, I’m sure that nearly everyone reading this wants something more in their lives.
So, join me and start taking back your own truth, start living your life fuller and wider.
Remember those that love you, but also remember that you must love yourself.
This life is a journey but its an one time deal, so make it the best you can, be true to you and others will know your truth to them.