Transformation

I have been changing so much over the last couple of years.

Finding out who I am and who I wish to be.

Finding my style, what I like, what I want to wear and so much more.

It’s been a journey full of ups and downs.

So to celebrate this journey and how far I have come and how finally I am starting to like what I see in the mirror I booked myself a photo shoot with the amazing Chiara Aprea Photography.

I had seen a few of the photos from my friends shoots and was really excited for my own.

The whole shoot was amazing Chiara is a wonderful person so friendly and makes you feel at home as soon as you enter her studio.

After a coffee and a chat it was all go.

Besides being an incredible photographer Chiara is also a truly talented make up artist and hairdresser and before long I was transformed.

I chose a very exciting style but Chiara made my idea come to life.

the makeover

Then it was time for the photography to begin.

I was so nervous but after the first few photos and Chiara constant reassurance I completely relaxed and enjoyed being in front of the camera.

Honestly I could rave on and on about how fantastic Chiara is but I think I’m just going to let the photos speak for me.

 

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Honestly I love them all.

If you are considering having a photo shoot I would seriously consider working with Chiara Aprea she has some great offers right now on her facebook page also she has been kind enough to offer my readers a 10% discount if they use the code Sara10

Personally I am still on a high after my shoot, it was fantastic to let my gothic vamp out. I still look at the photos and wonder if that’s really me. I know I’ve said it before but I seriously LOVE THEM.

 

It’s more than just the dress

After my last blog post about my amazing weekend I have a confession to make.

Yes the ball was a great experience.

Yes it was amazing to be with my good friends.

But I really really struggled.

People who have met me in real life will know that I’m an outgoing person who will pretty much chat to anyone.

But I am also rather insular.

I need my own space.

I hate crowds

I hate feeling like I’m not myself.

This is what happened this weekend.

It seems silly but the moment I put on my dress for the ball my confidence left me.

People using the words beautiful

Refined

Elegant

So not me.

I wasn’t comfortable

I didn’t feel real

Why did I do this to myself?

Even when ordering the dress I knew I wasn’t going to feel great in it.

I don’t do elegant, I do black and gothic.

Why do we do this to ourselves?

When out of our normal day to day life why do we put on a facade.

Why isn’t who we are good enough?

I’ve learned a valuable lesson and it’s a lot more to do with me than the dress.

It’s ok to hate crowds

It’s ok to love your jeans

And it’s ok to be me.

The crazy thing is my friends on this evening out have been my friends through the good times and my friends through the hardest times too.

They love me regardless.

Our friendships were forged on campsites where no-one I mean no-one can look great emerging out of a sleeping bag in the middle of a field.

We loved each other through morning breathe and we loved each other through many bottle of wines.

I had no need to pretend.

They love me for who I am.

Now i have only got to learn to accept these things about myself and the lesson will be truly learnt.

Oh and of course I need to find the perfect gothic dress just in case.