This weekend was the curve fashion festival in Manchester, it looked as if it was going to be amazing and from the reports and photos it certainly was a fantastic weekend.

As for me I didn’t go, I allowed my anxiety to win the battle.

I made excuses about starting university, exhaustion levels, financial issues.

But the truth is I find the fashion world daunting.

I think I have come to the conclusion that I have no personal style. The last few months I have fallen in love with so many pieces of clothing only to try them on an realise that they just don’t suit me at all.

The idea of being in a venue stacked full of beautiful women who are completely put together just overwhelmed me.

I’ve come to the conclusion that I need to learn more about the fashion that suits me or actually earn enough money to have a personal stylist.

I’m not sure if it is a confidence issue or an actual mental block when it comes to style but I am really struggling.

I think I need to be on one of those television programmes where they dress you to suit your personality and shape.

Yet I am so frustrated at myself. I cannot believe I allowed fear win the battle again.

Seriously Sara you suck.

It feels like a massive step backwards for me.

I actually hate that I feel this way.

So if anyone of you fashion peeps out there fancy letting me know what I should be wearing please feel free to email me.

Honestly and truthfully I need serious help.

To be beautiful means to be yourself. You don’t need to be accepted by others. You need to accept yourself. ~Thich Nhat Hanh

This quote pretty much sums up the journey I have been on over the last 12 months.

For so long I have been searching for acceptance from others.

Trying to be the person I believed they wished me to be.

Struggling to be happy being someone I’m not.

It’s took me a long time to realise that the only acceptance I really need is from myself.

If I don’t love me how can I ask others too.

So this is my journey.

I’ve searched my heart to learn more about myself.

What I want in life?

What I want to achieve?

I’ve also had to learn to appreciate the body I have.

It may not be the body of my youth but it has birthed four amazing girls.

Suffered a major assault and now fights the effects of fibromyalgia and spine damage.

So in light of all this it is pretty amazing.

So on this body confidence note

I want to tell you about something I am doing in August.

It’s something I would have never imagined I would ever do again.

On August 2nd I am modelling as part of a plus sized event called Style xL

I will be strutting my stuff alongside some beautiful ladies.

I still can’t believe I’m doing this but I am super excited and I know it’s going to be an amazing day.

I am truly thrilled and can’t wait.

Style XL is going to be the Midlands first ever plus size fashion event and it’s going to be amazing.

Organised by Leleicious the event will showcase some of the Plus size brands that exist in the UK.

There will be the opportunity to view the latest trends coming for 2015 and maybe even purchase something awesome from the market stalls.

Showcasing their beautiful clothes are the brands

I am so excited I could burst.

It’s going to be a fantastic event.

I know the beautiful Leah has been working so hard to create this awesome day.

Seriously it’s going to be a truly inspiring day.

Of course if you want to see me conquer my demons and walk that catwalk you do need to come along.

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Would someone please dress me?

Woo Hoo I’m modelling at Style XL

To be beautiful means to be yourself. You don’t need to be accepted by others. You need to accept yourself. ~Thich Nhat Hanh

Tickets are on sale now.