#mybloggingtruth – A challenge to all bloggers

I started my first blog back in the early part of 2008, I wanted to share my life and what it was like raising a severely disabled child. How it could be hard but it could also be truly amazing. In the last 7 years I have seen many changes in the blogging world some good, some not so much. I know it has expanded greatly thats for sure, both in the personal and business world. Bloggers have become influential and can really make a difference to the public perception of a brand or a product.

It will come as no surprise to my regular readers of which I know there may be one or two that I am an emotional writer. My words fall from my heart onto the pages here. Sometimes I read my old posts and think maybe I shouldn’t have shared that or maybe I could have written it different but often I write for freedom and at that time writing that blog post may have given me that.

Sharing your heart here in the virtual world isn’t easy, especially when you put your name to the words. Of course we have all read the anonymous nefarious hate that has been written by trolls but in my book if you don’t put your name to it well then your cowardly shit isn’t worth the webspace you are taking up.

But even the most honest of all writers hide.

Are we really not photoshopping our words, our lives, hiding behind the filters.

Do we really share all our true faults, our failings?

Hands up I know I don’t.

Why would we?

It’s scary being vulnerable.

Well, as a writer who has shared her struggles and also from reading and talking to others what I have learned is that honesty makes people feel less alone.

How many of us moms have really felt that we have had enough, I know have. Seriously at times I wonder if I am cut out to be a mother. I screw up so often that I’m glad my children don’t keep score. Yet when I read blogs that seem full of perfect parenting I truly struggle. Questions like “what did I do wrong”? Raise their mind destroying heads.

Or the blog of the woman who dropped her pregnancy weight in 2 weeks whilst 14 years I still have my baby belly.

The perfect home baking whilst my kitchen looks like a war zone.

All this seems just out of reach.

So I’m setting all bloggers the #mybloggingtruth  challenge.

I want you to write a post sharing your truths.

Be open and be vulnerable and lets come together to celebrate our imperfections, our  struggles and our mishaps.

I will start the ball rolling here’s my truth……  I run away. 

I get so scared of failing that sometimes I’m to scared to try. I hate this about myself, I look back at the opportunities I have missed because of fear. The friendships I didn’t allow to blossom because I didn’t believe in myself. The many times I have said no when my heart really wanted to say yes. So many experiences, prospects lost to my fear.

I’m working on this but  I am truly still a work in progress.

So join in with me, write your post, tweet it to me @livvyssmile and use the hashtag #mybloggingtruth and lets use our words and our truths to make us all feel less alone.

Let our transparency be the the light for others.

Let’s do this, lets share our blogging truths.

Turning the page

As any writer will tell you there are times when the words flow and others when each word written feels like it has been torn from your soul.

I often have days of both.

One thing that seems to free up the gates of inspiration is when I am writing about something that I am passionate about, surprising hey.

A month or so ago I received and email from the company i worked for telling me about a competition that was being run by Irwin Mitchell Solicitors and KIDS. They challenged us to write a piece about disability, either from living with one or caring for someone who had one.

Of course this set me off and before long I had emailed my entry in.

Now this was rather surprising for me as I normally hold back in fear of rejection but as part of my nothing ventured, nothing gained new outlook I decided why not.

Well imagine my joy to receive an email telling me that I was joint winner of the 18 and over category.

I have won an amazing prize of a Kindle Fire but I will also get to see my words in a book they are making to raise money for KIDS.

I am super excited about it all and cannot wait to get my own copy.

If you would like to read what I wrote and the amazing winning entries in other categories please take a look here. My piece is called Never say never.

I”m so glad that i didn’t allow my fear and insecurities stop from entering this time.

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It’s the wrong season for snow

I can’t believe we are nearly at Easter and everywhere is covered in snow. It’s making me crazy. Not that I hate the snow I just think spring really isn’t the season for it. It has its place at Christmas for example.

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But with Easter approaching I want to see new life being created.

Buds sprouting through the ground.

Leaves starting to fill out on the trees.

Lambs being born.

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Ok ok you get the picture, it’s a time for the new.

Most people see New Year as their new beginnings but for me it’s Easter that has that new start meaning about it.

The reminder of the ultimate sacrifice.

The gift of the cross.

It challenges me to do better.

To be better.

To throw away my overcoat of excuses and to step out of my comfort zone and into the unknown.

Maybe I hibernate in the cold seasons. Maybe I’m solar powered.

Who knows ?

But as the seasons change and time moves on I need to cherish every moment.

Every second, every hour are filled with the breathe of promise.

The gift of creation.

The anticipation of dreams.

New buds, new ideas, new life, new challenges.

The evolution of the seasons.

The evolution of our souls.

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Life is an experiment

“All life is an experiment. The more experiments you make the better. ”
Ralph Waldo Emerson

I found myself struck by the above quote today. It wasn’t new to me, it fact it’s one I’ve read many times before, yet for some reason today I read it with new eyes, a new understanding.

Maybe its the journey I’ve been on the few years, so many things have not gone as I had planned or even perceived. The twists and turns of my life have left me suffering badly from motion sickness. But unlike some crazy fairground ride my life hasn’t stopped in a few minutes it’s carried on and forward.

Don’t get me wrong it’s not all been bad,along with the darkest of moments there has been have been ones of pure light and unadulterated joy. Life has certainly been for living that’s for sure.

Like the quote states the more experiments you make the better, The decisions I’ve made in life haven’t always been the best but I’ve learned from mistakes, changed where things when wrong. Rectified and moved on and in doing so got better at it (I hope).

I have to smile at the youth of today they seem to expect everything to come easy to them. Life does move at much faster pace but something’s take time. A friend of mines son was so sure it wouldn’t take him long to learn how to drive. I mean hey he had watched his dad do it so many times. It looked easy enough and on his xbox he was one of the highest scorers in that driving game.

So when he stalled the car over three times on his first driving lesson he became disheartened and gave up. “driving was overrated ” it seems.

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I’m sure most of us would smile at this story but I asked myself the question “am I any different”.

I have started things I was sure I would achieve only to struggle and lose my way. I’ve given up on things rather than persevere. I’m not proud to admit this but it’s true.

Take blogging as an example so many times over my first year I nearly gave up. It seemed that nobody was reading and that everyone else was having dramatic success.

Then I looked at what I believe to be the core reason for any success. The reason for doing!

Why did I write? Why did I blog? I could carry on filling notebook after notebook with my words and not stress over people’s opinions or views.

The reason I write is that I wanted to share my words with others in hope that someone may take something away from them, may enjoy them, relate to them. So I’ve carried on and far from being one of the top blogs I’m slowly building a community of readers that I’m proud to be part of.

My friends son, he is still young but I’m sure there will come a time when wanting to drive will become more important to him than his pride. When he needs a car for his chosen career or transporting his family round. He will get back behind the wheel and restart his driving lessons.

Life is full of challenges and lessons that we need to learn. I’m learning to embrace them.

I was once told ” the only truly stupid question is the one you didn’t ask”. I love this philosophy of life.

I was glad of this reminder today. Life is an experiment but remember some experiments bring incredible results.

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