True beauty

If you have been on social media this week or have watched or read the news you would have heard about the remarks Loose women, ex pop star Jamelia as said regarding clothing brands and the availability  of clothes in sizes that she doesn’t believe to be healthy. How she believes that High street stores should not stock sizes below a 6 and over a 20 as ‘they’ should feel uncomfortable if ‘they’ are unhealthy.

So many wonderful bloggers have eloquently written about this and in a way that I couldn’t do it justice.

The reason I cannot find the words is simply because Jamelia’s statement stole from me. They took away a feeling of self confidence that I had finally found only after the last few years. She made me feel like

a) a burden on society

b) someone who should be ashamed

Thankfully the amazing Debz from The not so secret diary of a wannabe princess decided to do something about these remarks. In her words

 ” I feel that by saying ‘they’ should shop in specialist shops and ‘they’ should be made to feel uncomfortable it is all very anonymous. It is easy to say that a bunch of blank faces (and bodies) should be treated a certain way, but what Jamelia (and anyone who agrees with her) needs to realise is that WE are real people. We have REAL feelings, REAL jobs, friends and families. When you say that people should make ‘them’ feel uncomfortable you are encouraging them to treat US differently.. US as in real people.
So, Jamelia and anyone who feels that ‘they’ should be made to feel uncomfortable 
‘WE ARE THE ‘THEY’

Then Debz encouraged women of the sizes that ‘Dr Jamelia’ doesn’t believe are healthy to take to social media and share photos of themselves
Using the hashtag #wearethethey

I cannot tell you how this hashtag has moved me over the last two days. Beautiful women size 20 and over and equally as beautiful woman size 6 and under celebrating their bodies as they blooming well should.

My own journey with body acceptable has been hard, from a teenager full of self loathing and self harm I only finally loved my body once it started to grow a child. When I could throw away all the falsehoods and realise what an amazing thing my body truly was.

I  actually don’t remember a time when I didn’t think I was fat. When my body was the size that Jamelia  considers acceptable I hated it. Living on a diet of cigarettes and vodka scared to eat. Hating my body for what it was, punishing it daily left me with a body that was failing and my mind, well let’s not go there.

I actually dread to think where I would be now if I hadn’t met my husband and got pregnant with my first born when I did.  Knowing that a life was forming inside me changed me. I finally understood what true beauty was.

Now it would be wonderful if my mind set had stayed in this place but 4 children in 5 years left my body rather ragged, but thankfully being able to be active with the girls and teaching dance my body was in a place that I was happy with or I could accept.

Then to cut a long story short I was attacked and beaten and then due to complications was left with an immune system that was failing.

10 years later I am left with a health issue that effects every part of my life. I take numerous medicines and my ability to do physical things is sorely limited. I also live in constant pain.

Now this had changed my world from one were I was a fit dance teacher to one where for a while could barely walk.

I had to find a new kind of normal.  I also had to face a changing body and one I hated . The old self hatred rose it’s ugly head. I struggled, clothes became a non issue, a uniform of jeans and baggy clothes became my wardrobe. Never did I wake up excited about what I was going to wear. Photographs of me disappeared, I became the photographer never the photographed.

Then thankfully a few years ago I came across some plus size bloggers, women who were actively shouting I’m here and I want to look good. Women who advocate that fashion should come in all sizes.

Women who changed me.

Now I look in the mirror and like what I see, yes I’m overweight but my diet is good. It’s certainly a lot better than it was back In the days of cigarettes and vodka.

I’m swimming each week, raising 4 amazing children and working  full time as a foster carer to children with special needs.

I love life and I’m really living.

I guess what I’m trying to say is this Jamelia I am not ashamed of who I am.

How dare you suggest I should be made to feel uncomfortable anywhere.  I am a beautiful, incredible woman and I only hope that one day that you will realise that beauty is not found in the number on your label and that health is not always something you can see.

Please consider your position as well, consider all those women who you destroyed with your words. Opinions are like assholes we all have them, yet when in a position of privilege in this case being beamed into thousands of homes around the UK please think before you speak. The shit you spew can and I can assure you has damaged someone.

When the world stops judging people’s value on appearance then the world will finally see true beauty. 

 

Weekly wish list

My weekly wish list my wants, needs and must have’s.

 

My first choice is this beautiful leather jacket I have admired this for a while from the Asos curve range and I just love it.

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Staying with the leather theme I have this gorgeous bag from Dr Martens on my birthday wish list.

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I love this simple but stunning Black Lace top from Yours Clothing.

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To complete this rock chick look I really really need this aptly named eyeshadow palette from the fantastic Charlotte Tilbury range. I have just brought a number of her products and I love the quality of them.

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#PSBloggerlove – Say hello to Em

One of the most rewarding things I have from attending plus size fashion events is the amazing women I get to meet.

Crazy energetic feisty gorgeous  women.

One of these women is the incredibly beautiful Em who blogs over at Terrible Tumbles .

I’m not sure what I loved first about Em when I met her, she has this awkward unique vibe which I adore and relate to.

It may also have been our discussion about footwear for our rather large feet. I honestly don’t know but after also following on instagram and chatting on twitter and reading her blog I just blooming love the woman.

Terrible tumbles is a blog is full of fashion which can range through all styles.

Em doesn’t seem to have one style she embraces them all in her own unique way. All helped by the fact she is naturally stunning which I’m sure is something she isn’t actually aware off.

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Anyone who follows Em will realise quickly she an extremely bright woman with a humour that makes me actually laugh out loud.

Some of her photos and poses just make you giggle and the faces she pulls well you need to see for yourself.

She is a blogger that doesn’t take herself too seriously.

She loves fashion and loves people and this just oozes from her posts.

Honestly I just think she simply rocks.

Still don’t take my word for it. Pop over to Terrible tumbles and see for yourself and please say hi to Em and let her know I’ve sent you as part of   #PSBloggerLove

 

 

Weekly wish list

Its that time again when I let you know my fashion wants and what has caught my eye in the plus size fashion world.

First off I’m still on the search for another swimsuit. Swimming a few times per week means I need another suit to add to my collection.

This gorgeous retro swimsuit from Simply Be is perfect and ideal match between fashion and strength. I need something with extra strength in the chest area, I will say no more ha ha.

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My 2nd and 3rd choices are from New Look.  I’m in desperate need of some casual every day clothes. I seem to be ruining some of  my tops getting them covered with snot and all those wonderful bodily juices that my foster son loves to share with me.

I combined these Inspire Ripped Skinny Jeans with a Grey Peace and love T-shirt.  I love this set funky and casual all rolled into one.

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To finish this weeks list is these beautiful handmade Confetti Lucite Earrings from the fantastic etsy store Desperate Beatnik. Serious go check this store out as Olivia makes some amazing jewellery.

The colour of these just really caught my eye.

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How amazing are they..

 

So there you go my weekly wish list is complete. No if money was no an issue they would all be on there way to me now.

Click the photos to visit the stores…..

 

Transformation

I have been changing so much over the last couple of years.

Finding out who I am and who I wish to be.

Finding my style, what I like, what I want to wear and so much more.

It’s been a journey full of ups and downs.

So to celebrate this journey and how far I have come and how finally I am starting to like what I see in the mirror I booked myself a photo shoot with the amazing Chiara Aprea Photography.

I had seen a few of the photos from my friends shoots and was really excited for my own.

The whole shoot was amazing Chiara is a wonderful person so friendly and makes you feel at home as soon as you enter her studio.

After a coffee and a chat it was all go.

Besides being an incredible photographer Chiara is also a truly talented make up artist and hairdresser and before long I was transformed.

I chose a very exciting style but Chiara made my idea come to life.

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Then it was time for the photography to begin.

I was so nervous but after the first few photos and Chiara constant reassurance I completely relaxed and enjoyed being in front of the camera.

Honestly I could rave on and on about how fantastic Chiara is but I think I’m just going to let the photos speak for me.

 

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Honestly I love them all.

If you are considering having a photo shoot I would seriously consider working with Chiara Aprea she has some great offers right now on her facebook page also she has been kind enough to offer my readers a 10% discount if they use the code Sara10

Personally I am still on a high after my shoot, it was fantastic to let my gothic vamp out. I still look at the photos and wonder if that’s really me. I know I’ve said it before but I seriously LOVE THEM.

 

Pink Clove Review

Sometimes you love and outfit on a model but when you are there standing it you realise its not for you and just doesn’t suit your shape and size.

I find this leaves me disappointed and in this case super sad.

When asked if I wanted to review a few items from Pink Clove I jumped at the chance I had been lusting over a lace skater dress they had but in my haste and pure excitement I ordered this equally as stunning Lace midi dress.

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The fabric on this dress is beautiful, but for me who carries a lot of weight around the stomach I just didn’t feel as if I could pull it off. Also my height meant that this was a little short too.

The second outfit I chose was these awesome Fleur Cigarette leg trousers  with the Imogen Mesh Insert top

I liked this outfit but again i will have prefer a little more length in the trousers.

 

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My last choice was this blue mesh insert jersey top.. The colour is beautiful, though again my body betrayed me the front of the top ended up fitting a little low and it was a little tight.

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All in all I will say Pink Clove offer some well priced fashionable clothes but please check the sizes closely as I found them to be a little different to my normal.

 

* I was gifted this items for the purpose of this review but all opinions are my own.

We need special dresses for a truly special event.

Now if you read this blog you will  know I am one proud mom, my children are my world.

My girls have faced so much loss in their short lives and yet still have held on to their compassionate hearts which isn’t easy when faced with so much hurt I can promise you that.

Besides being fantastic sisters to Livvy they now have happily opened their hearts and homes to the children we foster.

So when I found out that my youngest was a finalist in The Eleventh Annual Mayor’s Civic Awards I could have cried, ok I did cry.

The Mayor’s Civic Awards are now in their eleventh year honouring local people who make outstanding contributions to the borough and my girlie is one of those they are honouring.

We are all so excited for this special evening but are a little worried about what to wear. We don’t really attend many formal events so this is both exciting and nerve wracking for us all.

Especially for my daughter and I as dress shopping is a little overwhelming for us denim loving ladies.

Still we have been searching the internet for our special dresses for this special event.

Here are our choices.

Brodie and I both fell in love with dresses from Chi Chi Clothing 

Brodie loved this elegant lace skater dress

 

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Whilst I fell head over heels with this cap sleeve baroque style maxi dress the detail is simply beautiful.

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Chic Chic Avril Dress

 

These dresses are truly beautiful and would turn a special night into a truly amazing night.

Brodie also fell in love with this stunning dress from New Look 

I love this one and think the colour would really compliment Brodie’s beautiful big blue eyes.

John Zack navy low lace dress
John Zack navy low lace dress

 

I love this Little Mistress Wrap Front Maxi dress from Asos. It’s so special, I am so nervous about this event so making sure I feel good is so important.

 

 

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Little mistress wrap front dress

 

Brodie doesn’t have a third choice but this Little mistress emb nude maxi dress.  from Simply Be caught my eye, I love the detail on the top of this dress.

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Little mistress nude maxi dress

 

Brodie and I are both excited and nervous about this event. It is so special that Brodie has been named as a finalist, I am so proud of her.

 

It will also be a wonderful opportunity for us to tell people about Livvy’s Smile.

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If any of the brands listed or any other brands would like to work with us on this we would be extremely excited and please email us at walkingwithangels@live.co.uk