Oh the irony of today’s 31 days of October prompt “content” today I’ve felt far from content. You know those days where your mind betrays you. When you thoughts are telling you that you are useless, mocking all that you are. Convincing you that you are not good enough, you are unloved and unwanted. Also add a awful headache and vertigo and that has been my day.

That has been my day feeling far from content.

I turned to social media asking my friends for the words, quotes, scripture anything that brings them strength because in all honesty I have needed it. Some of their quotes reminded me of my strength, how to breathe, how to be but still I feel lost.

“As rainbows are forged from sunshine and rain, so our lives are a mixture of joy and pain. If we bear with the darkness and learn from it too the rain clouds will part and the sun break through xx”

“Not by might, nor by power but by my spirit says The Lord.”

Zechariah 4.6

Why are our minds so cruel at times?

Contentment felt a myth, something for others but for me.

Then this happened

As this boy snuggled up to me, As I felt his heart beat next to mine,contentment was mine.

I am content.