Yesterday I felt so ill I actually had to spend the day in bed. I couldn’t stand without feeling dizzy and my temperature gauge was completely crazy. Hot, cold, sweating, freezing. It completely sucked but the worse of the day was the internal battle I was having with my mind.
Am I the only parent who believes they should never be ill? That by being poorly I am letting my children down?
Why do I do this to myself?
I mean for a start I’m human, I’m a mortal being whose body can often be found at war from viruses, conditions etc. Being a parent did not make me immune to all this.
Actually I think that would have been helpful, immunity and the ability to survive on little sleep should be delivered gift wrapped the day you become a parent. Yet it doesn’t so yes I’m human and sometimes human beings get sick.
I cannot help this situation, I didn’t request it and I certainly don’t enjoy it so why the heck am I feeling guilty?
It’s crazy actually what I feel guilty for since I’ve been a mom.
Nights out without children- obviously means I’m scarring them for life.
Forgetting non uniform days at school
Forgetting which child hates all vegetables compared to the ones who will eat a few.
Not washing the jeans that the teenager left on the bathroom floor and not realising those are the ones she needs for college right now.
Not having enough money to purchase a car for each child.
Not having enough hours in the day for everything?
Seriously though when did I decide everything was my fault?
Also is this a parent thing or a mom thing? As Alan doesn’t look back when he goes out at night, doesn’t think non uniform days should be a thing and really doesn’t stress when forgets pretty much everything. Yet I’m my own worse critic.
I just don’t understand myself, I’m the first person to tell others to give themselves a break. That perfect parents do not actually exist, yet lying ill in bed I’ve been really down on myself.
Someone give me a kick please.