When I saw today’s word I was surprised by how apt it is for me and the time I’m in now. As tomorrow is the launch date of my story, a book that shares the journey of the life of my late daughter Livvy.
I haven’t written the book, I could never find the way to detach from the moment to write in clarity. It’s been written by an amazing man who over the last year has let me cry on his shoulder, encouraged me to remember and then used his words to explain my heart to honour my daughter.
It’s not been easy I have to surrender my heart and my soul, to share truthfully and openly my story. Allowing my mind to go to places that it’s had tried to protect me from. Having to surrender to the pain I faced to find the words to bring reverence to the courage of my beautiful daughter.
Yet as I sit here excited for release day tomorrow I confess I am nervous. Tomorrow between these pages those that read it will know my heart. They will walk my journey through Olivia’s life with me. I’m not expecting judgement, I’m not expecting dislike but transparency can come at cost.
Still it’s a cost I’m willing to pay in hope that one more person learns of the devastating condition of Rett Syndrome. Learns what each and every girl has to face each day. Understands maybe a little more the pain and anguish the parents and families face.
I’m surrendering my soul in awareness, sharing my heart in hope.
Hope that those that read will learn of the condition, pray that one day a cure will be found for this evil syndrome.
But more than this I hope and pray that people learn that life is a gift not to be kept perfectly wrapped up in a pretty bow but a life that should be ripped open and enjoyed to the max.
I learned the hard way that none of us have the promise of forever, but we all do have the gift of today.
Go live it xxx
Joining in again with the Five minute Friday party.
4 thoughts on “Surrender”
Sara this is a beautiful post. You are a brave woman of God to share a painful story in which others can learn hope. I will pray God brings people to your book. Blessings, Julie, your FMF neighbor
I am sorry for your loss. I’m also most impressed with your bravery for sharing the story so it could be told to help others understand. You are in my prayers today as is the author of your story.
Thanks so much for sharing.
FMF #9 this week.
Visiting from FMF as your neighbor this week. Love this. God has got you and He’s going to use your surrender to bless the world.
I am so sorry for your loss. I still have my daughter, but she lives with Dravet syndrome – and enough loose their battle that I have awareness of what a gift every day is. Thank you for surrendering your vulnerability. Visiting from FMF.