Today has been a strange day i have placed my heart in places of vulnerability, places of pain, in hope of peace.

The realisation that to truly heal one has to allow oneself to feel.

To wait in expectation of the agony to know the rewards of joy.

Grief is an state of expectation, the cost of love or the reward of love.

The irony of that statement, pain the reward of  love.

The honour of love.

How often i find myself lost in the darkness of grief. 

I struggle to remember why it has to hurt so much?

Why my soul cries out?

Then a memory rises to the edge, allowing me the freedom of remembrance, 

the joy of loving


the trust of forever. 

Joining in with five minute fridayWrite for five minutes on the word of the week. This is meant to be a free write, which means: no editing, no over-thinking, no worrying about perfect grammar or punctuation.

2 thoughts on “Expect 

  1. Susan Witmer Miller

    I am so sorry that you are dealing with grief. It is so very difficult and painful to walk through. I hope that you don’t have to go it alone and have people walking through this difficult time with you and helping you to carry your burdons. *hugs*


  2. “to truly heal one has to allow oneself to feel.” So true. It’s hard to see the healing or health or growth on the other side of pain. That’s one benefit of reading about those who have traveled through the journey of grief and come the other side whole. But know it’s possible doesn’t make it easy to take the first step into the pain.

    May God give you courage and comfort as you heal.


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