Transparency how I love this word, yes I may have mentioned this before but I just cannot help it, it actually may be one of my favourite words. I celebrate that what you see is what you get and I want that for me, I want that to be me.
For a long time I have felt like I was living life at 60% hiding away for so long, hiding from my emotions being embarrassed by my empathetic nature. I am now finally embracing my transparency and loving life a hell of a lot more.
Does this get me into trouble ? At times maybe , but being open and honest matters, it’s allowing my soul the freedom that it sorely needs.
I don’t want people in my life to not to know what I think of them, how much I love, cherish and admire them. I don’t want to wish for second chances or to cry over missed opportunities. I want to die empty with nothing held back.
I often think of Livvy and her transparency, anyone who was with Livvy knew exactly how she was feeling, happy or sad. If Livvy loved you she made sure you knew it. Her eyes, her smile surrounding you in the warmth of true love. The flip side being if she wasn’t keen she also let you know that too. The looks that little madam could give you well, it’s lucky some didn’t turn into stone. I will never forget one doctor turning to the nurses after prodding her with needles for way to long and saying “I don’t think she likes me” the nurses burst into laughter because Livvy had made her opinion clear I mean from turning her back to him to refusing to look up when he was near. She was totally transparent and I loved her for it.
It’s this need for openness and truth that is leaving me struggling right now. When the country seems to be changing in front of my eyes. People I have known or thought I knew having opinions that seriously shock me. Statements of pure hate coming from those I though were about love.
Yes I can accept that the country is scared the right wing propaganda is blaming immigrants for everything. Hey I burnt my toast this morning, blooming immigrants, but this blame game isn’t one of truth.
People are falling for the lies, the blatant misdirection of the corrupt. Blame these people whilst we screw you over as you look the other way.
Yet we aren’t all gullible, at times I think we know we are being sold a pile of horse poo but it’s easier to blame that it is to fight. To stand up against the hate and say enough.
It’s the hiding in shadows that is tearing at my heart right now. When the people in power are playing egotistical games with the vulnerable. When winning points is more important than saving lives.
I’m craving for transparency, for the curtains to fall away and the whole stage to be seen.
It’s time for a change.
This world needs transparency and it also needs accountability, another rather wonderful word.
People need to be accountable for their actions, their words, their decisions, their votes.
Imagine a world where you had to be accountable for every decision you made.
For every word your spoke.
For every action you took or didn’t take.
I truly think the world would be a different place.
A place where people thought before they spoke.
Deliberated before they acted.
This world would be a kinder place.
We would have a more loving world.
And a hell of a lot more happiness and laughter.