I can’t believe that we dropped you off at university yesterday.
I wasn’t sure how I would feel.
Its been a rocky road the last few months a lot of arguments and clashes.
I guess its the normal teenage desires to be an adult fighting with the mothering instinct to keep you safe.
I have jokingly said I couldn’t wait for this moment but I was wrong.
It was harder than I imagined.
Driving away from the university leaving you behind was awful.
It honestly felt as if i was losing control.
I guess I am.
From the moment I gave birth the instinct to protect you was paramount.
Every decision I make is about keeping you safe.
Now I have to let you go and just pray that i have raised you well and that you will keep yourself safe.
Arrrahhhh its hard.
Harder than I imagined.
Kennedy you are my first born, everything I have learned about being a mom has come from you first.
The sleepless nights, the endless feeding to the stroppy teenage tantrums and the “ I know betters”.
Enjoy this next stage in your life sweetheart.
Grab every opportunity and live life to the full.
At times you have drove me to distraction but I am so proud of you baby girl.
You have wanted to be a history teacher for so long and now you are on the first step towards your dream.
Work hard and have fun.
Know that although we are a distance away you are never far from my thoughts.
May this be your stepping stone to your dreams.
Love you to the moon, stars and back again.