It’s been over a week now since Plus North and I have come down to earth with a bang.
I have been watching all the photos from the event going online and I am so cross at myself.
I hid behind my husband.
I look at the ladies all taking selfies together in groups chatting, laughing and I know I let myself down.
Why do I always shy away from friendships?
Oh come on
I know why.
I just don’t feel good enough.
I’m sorry I don’t mean this to be a woe me kind of post.
More Sara you are a stupid so so kind of post.
Why do I let the past control my future?
The evil lies that I was told still be my truth.
I was so determined to go to plus north and really engage in friendship. But I saw beautiful amazing women and I felt inferior.
I hate that I feel this way.
It’s so much more than just plus north. It’s me generally.
I am so very lonely and hate that I do this to myself.
Honestly I am my own worst enemy.
Am I beyond hope?