What do you do when life seems crazy and you feel like it’s all to much?
Do you have ways of calming yourself down, meditation, prayer or maybe wine?
I’m not really sure I have a method.
I seem to carry on and carry on until I have to sleep with complete exhaustion.
Only yesterday I realised I do something else when life gets stressful.
I pull away.
My phone stays silent,.
I ignore the notifications and I only communicate as and when.
It’s as if I can only cope with so much that I’m scared to open up in case it becomes more.
Yet in doing this I find myself alone, lonely.
It wasn’t always like this.
Something happened last year which left me hurting terribly.
It took away my naivety
It took away my trust
And why I have tried not to let it have a hold over me I realise it has.
My closing off and pretending I’m ok Is literally locking out those who wish to be there for me.
[Tweet “Punishing many for the few.”]
I apologise to those I have shied away from.
I see now all you were trying to do is be there for me.
I am truly grateful.
I can’t promise I won’t hold back or close off anymore.
[Tweet “But I can promise I will try.”]