Today is my birthday I am 38 years old.
I cannot believe how amazing my 37th year has been.
I have finally found me.
That sounds crazy doesn’t it.
How do you lose yourself?
I don’t think i actually ever lost myself because I don’t believe i had ever found myself before.
For so long I have tried to be who I perceived others wanted me to be.
Hiding my heart to keep others happy.
But its not honest and its certainly not a way to live.
I will be ok when I get my degree.
I will be better when I lose weight.
I will become nicer.
I will try to be kinder.
More open, more trusting
A better mom.
A better wife.
My list became endless and always out of reach.
I finally can see that.
I am kind hearted
I am a good friend.
I am beautiful.
I am so loved.
What a year!!!
I wish it hadn’t took 37 years to get to this place but hey ho I am here.
I am so excited to see what my 38th year will bring me.
I already have exciting things planned.
I mean I’m modelling for goodness sake.
Whatever happens I know it will be fun and filled with love, laughter and friendship.
What more can this birthday girl ask??