One True Media is closing down and have asked us to download our videos.
Sounds fine doesn’t it.
Just download the videos and you have them for your own.
So that’s what I do but then of course I stop to watch.
The impact of pain just hits me smack in my stomach.
The video is of my baby girl.
So far away from me.
I want to just reach out through the screen and hold her.
Feel her hand in my hand.
It hurts so bad.
Will it ever stop feeling like a knife in my stomach?
Twisting, turning deeper and deeper.
I want to hold my daughter.
It’s not a lot to ask is it?
I can’t stop the tears as they fall
The gut wrenching sobs seem to echo around my room.
I want my baby.
Missing her is just too damn hard.
It’s not fair and right now I can’t see past the pain.
Grief is like a weight pushing down on my chest.
I cannot breathe
I don’t want to breathe.
Time isn’t a great healer.
Life just sucks
I want my baby back.
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There are no words I can say. Sending hugs.
Darling. It’s so hard when you are unprepared and the grief hits you side on. Much love H x