Sometimes I believe my body betrays me.
I have so much to do but it just gives up or gives out.
Yet is it really betraying me or just trying to save me?
How many times have I pushed myself too far and ended up making a mistake.
Exhaustion is not the place to find a focused mind.
So is my body just making the decision my mind won’t make?
I know I’m not alone in my inability to slow down.
I hear and read so many accounts of people being struck down by illnesses, coughs, colds, virus’ all at their most stressful and demanding times.
Many will confess that they were run down beforehand making them susceptible to the bacteria flying around.
Exhausting themselves to the point of illness.
So why do we do this to ourselves?
For me I know it’s my inability to switch off.
Thanks to the invention of mobile phones, the Internet the world is at my fingertips. Unfortunately thanks to these same things I can access work at every hour of the day.
Writing blog posts into the early hours of the morning, updating site content, balancing the bank at so on.
Access all areas, access all hours.
I’ve tried many things, giving myself set hours. Switching the Internet off, leaving my mobile phone downstairs and sometimes this works. But not being able to write is sometimes more frustrating that getting it over with, at least after its written i can finally fall into an exhausted slumber.
See what I mean when I say I don’t help myself?
It’s not that I’m always falling behind with work, you can guarantee that the day I am all completed it will be the night my foster son will refuse to sleep at all.
It’s Sod’s law as they say.
So in hindsight I don’t actually believe my body is against me, it’s just trying to protect me from myself and this crazy thing I call my life.