Okay here goes, i confess I’m a secret Speidi fan. For the first time ever I have actually found myself addicted to Celebrity Big Brother ( oh the shame).

Now I know Speidi are the couple everyone loves to hate but I am so fascinated by them.

Maybe its because they are doing what I have secretly wanted to do.

Have you ever found yourself in a group not of your choosing and sat there really wanting to say “please go away”.

But you don’t either through professionalism or politeness, you have simply played nice.

I know I have and it has left me frustrated inside as I can not stand falseness but at times I think its becoming the normal.

I mean take facebook for example, how many have people that follow them on there, even comment on a post but if there were to see you in the street would walk on by.

Also lets be honest about human nature, we all have an element of competition in us. Desire to win, be the best. I personally believe Speidi are the only housemates being honest about their desire to win.

Of course in the real world behaviour like Speidi wouldn’t be acceptable but lets be honest CBB isnt the real world and “its just a game”.

Maybe you all think that I’ve finally lost the plot and maybe you are actually right but at times I just get so fed up of playing nice to the falseness of life.

I would love a little of Spencer’s audacity, the courage to say what I really feel. Life sometimes feels a little like CBB like its just a game.