I’m so tired at the moment, it feels like I haven’t a full nights sleep in weeks.

My youngest has been having nightmares, waking up with real fear. Scared of losing someone, facing another loss.

Of course all children have the occasional nightmare. Waking up scared that maybe someone has gone,

Yet for Brodie that nightmare has come true, Twice,

No wonder she is scared.

I hate that she has faced so much. I never imagined when she was born that she was to feel so much pain.

I wanted the perfect childhood for my girls. It was never about the material things just a childhood full of love, laughter and security.

Pain, loss, grief wasn’t part of my plan.

Of course life doesn’t always play the way we want it.

Making the decision to have a child is momentous. It is to decide forever to have your heart go walking around outside your body. ~Elizabeth Stone