It’s been a strange few days. I have found myself getting lost in my memories. Precious moments when the pain of my loss was forgotten.
God granted us an amazing gift when he gave us memories.
I know there are times where I wish I could forget. Painful, traumatic times but I wouldn’t trade my memory in for anything.
Just to hear Livvy’s giggle in my mind. To remember her mischievousness, her sheer cheekiness.
It’s these memories and many others that keep me going, keep me sane.
I often wonder If we were to realise the importance of the moment would we live it different.
If we realised that maybe one day we will look back and hold on tightly to this time, this moment.
I wonder if I would let go of the worries that tie on to my heart. The stresses that effect my mood and the length of my smile.
Could or would I allow myself to live in the magic of the moment, to live and breathe the here and now without thought of tomorrow or the following days.
Who knows what tomorrow brings at times today is enough of a challenge.
As Jesus once said
“Therefore do not be anxious about tomorrow, for tomorrow will be anxious for itself. Sufficient for the day is its own trouble. (Matthew 6:34 ESV)
So I’m refusing to be anxious anymore, embracing the moments, celebrating the memories and just be thankful.