When Bonnie told me the word they were discussing this week over at Faith Barista was the word TRUST I felt sick.
‘Trust ‘ the big elephant that is in every room I enter in my life.
I just cannot open my heart.
My husband tells me that he struggled so much with my inability to trust him. He felt he had to prove himself over and over again. I know he is right and I’m far from proud but I just can’t.
If I look back into my life maybe I can find the reasons for this, I really don’t have the answers. Maybe the truth is I don’t want them, its easier this way.
Nobody getting in.
Everyone at arms length.
I know the problem is mine, so many people in my life deserve my trust, my complete 100% trust but I hold back.
Is the issue self worth?
Am I worthy of someone’s trust.