I’ve just had one of the worst nights sleep ever.
My dreams were filled with awful nightmares.
Now I’m left analysing the whys and why nots of it all and my brain feels like its going to explode.
Picture this, I was in a room full with people I know but for some reason they were completely ignoring me. I couldn’t work out if they couldn’t see me or were just blanking me.
I was talking and they all looked straight past me, straight through me. This was my friends, my family, everyone.
They were all going about, chatting, drinking and having a great time but I was completely invisible to them.
It really struck home to me last night that maybe my nightmare was subconsciously telling me this is how I’ve been feeling. The last few weeks I have been struggling, overwhelmed by the sense of being alone.
It’s crazy as I have a husband who loves me and I’m constantly surrounded by my children. So how can I be feeling so alone?
I don’t know what’s going on in my head at the moment, just that it’s a rather strange place to be right now.
2 thoughts on “Feeling Alone”
Hi I found your blog from walking with you. I have read your story and quite a few post I wanted to comment on this one because that’s how I feel a lot right now.
It must be part of grief. Our son was stillborn at 20 weeks just a month ago.
I can’t imagine the pain you feel from losing your daughter, I am so sorry. You have a beautiful family!
Thank you, you must be hurting so bad right now, its still so very early and so very raw. Please if I can help in any way let me know. Here if you wish to talk, vent, anything xxx