Expectations

Wow a new year, why is the concept slowing starting to fill me with dread.

Everyone is talking, writing about expectations, desires, hopes. I just feel sick.

I get scared when I feel I’m expected to do something. That something is required of me. It’s like the panic becomes contagious effecting each and every part of my body and my mind.

I have dreams just like the next person but I’m so scared of failure that at times I’m to fearful to try.

Accepting my fear has to be the first step. Life has been scary at times, I have faced my worst fear and somehow survived. So acceptance may be the weapon in my arsenal to be used to conqueror my fear.

It’s ok to be scared to move forward but don’t allow it to stop you taking the first step.

It’s ok to be worried about reaching your goals but don’t let it stop you from trying.

It’s ok to be fearful of trusting but don’t allow it to stop you opening your heart.

I’m not going to fear failure this year. I’m going to accept that life doesn’t always go to plan or follow the pathway I had planned. Yet I will view all as learning experiences, changes to grow mature, flourish.

2012 will be a year of highs of lows, of happiness, of joy , of fear and failure. Through it all I will hold fast to the promises:

When I am afraid, I will trust in you.
(Psalms 56:3, NIV)

Be strong and courageous. Do not be afraid or terrified because of them, for the LORD your God goes with you; he will never leave you nor forsake you.”
(Deuteronomy 31:6, NIV)