I realised something today, something I knew deep in my heart but not something that I really had taken on board.

You can’t go back!

It’s a simple statement but the repercussions from it are far from simple. They are as vast as the universe.

I have spend so much of my time looking back that I’ve stopped appreciating or even experiencing the now.

The irony of this statement is that Livvy the reason I look back so often actually taught me the value of the moment. The need to live in the now, the gift of the present.

She must be up there in heaven thinking “mom I’ve taught you better”.

And she would be right, she did teach me better.

Each day we live is a gift

Each morning coffee with a friend.

Every cuddle with your loved ones.

Every burst of laughter as your children play.

The joy of the moment.

The gift of that smile that lights your face when you receive a text from your dear but crazy friend.

The savouring of the fullness of your stomach as you finish your meal.

The relief of someone doing the washing up.

I have so much to be grateful for in my life. So much in the here and now. My past will never be forgotten its stays here in the present in the love of my heart.

But life isn’t meant to be lived backwards, so today I’m driving myself forward.

Into the wonder of now

The joy of the future

The promise of eternity.